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On Paisly's due date, I was having one of my "bad days" I couldn't stop crying and thinking about what we should have. I was texting a really good friend, someone who's been there for me in so many ways. She gave me the great idea to write another letter to Paisly like I did on here, but on paper then tie it to a balloon and release it in the air to her. I called family and they all wanted to be a part of it. It was so special and it honestly helped so much. We all wrote letters to little Paisly. Andrew and I read each other's letters but everyone else kept theirs between them and Paisly. It was so special watching them fly off into the distance.






Andrew's mawmaw even said that once when Ricky was younger they did this in class, and wrote their addresses so that whoever found their letters could write back. Well Ricky's letter made it all the way to NEW YORK!!! Mom said that whoever found these letters better have a box of kleenex ready!!! I'm so glad we did it, I believe we are going to do it every year on her birthday, June 21st. That night after Andrew and I had done our devotions we were talking quite a bit, and I was telling him how I felt as far as the consistency thing...feeling at peace with God's plans one day and trusting them, then the next questioning and not having the faith I need to. Andrew put it like this to me. He said "Ryan there is no gray with God. It's black or white, either you believe in him completely which means you trust his plan or you don't". I tell you what- I married a smart smart man. He's completely right, I have to believe God all the time, I can't let myself sit and think myself out of believing that he knows what he is doing.

Thank you God for sending Andrew to me. You have blessed us in so many ways.