HE IS THERE.
Last night for some reason was a horrible night for me, I believe I cried harder and longer than I did when we actually found out that Paisly no longer had a heartbeat. Many times when I am that way, Andrew is at a loss for words and doesn't know exactly what to say, so he just holds me, and it helps...a lot. That is the exact same thing that God does. He holds us. He holds us when we are having a good day, or when we are having a bad day. He holds us during the happiest moments of our lives and in the midst of grief and sorrow. He lets us know in the most subtle ways that he is close to us just as we need Him to be. That's how great my God is, he knows how deep my sorrow and grief over Paisly is and he is there for me.
I went to greenboro today and picked up my pendant that I had ordered a few weeks ago, it has Paisly's name hand stamped onto it and has baby feet print on a heart above it. It is symbolic in so many ways. She left feet print on my heart just by being pregnant with her, and holding her sweet body after she was born. She has changed Andrew and I so much with her short life. She is so near and dear to my heart, just like the pendant that lies just above it. She is my sweetheart that I will forever remember kicking and prodding into my ribs and constantly kicking my bladder :)
The pendant is beautiful, what a sweet way to remember.
ReplyDeleteI think it is awesome that you are trying to find the good in all of this. You are totally right, God is holding you both!! Keep leaning on Him and He will get you through this.
ReplyDeleteI love the pendant.
I love you both!!
Gwynn
I came across your blog thru http://sgirl79.blogspot.com/. I am in awe of your story. Paisley is the most blessed girl in heaven to have a mommy like you! I wish I could give you a hug but since I can't I will give you a virtual hugg --> {{{hugs}}}. Read your entire blog and I was immensly touched. If you are on twitter I would love to follow you. God bless!
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ReplyDeleteI love the pendant!!!! What a beautiful way to remember Paisly and when others ask about the pendant just think how many lives may be impacted when they hear how God has worked in this situation. She is such a huge blessing to all of us. It truly is amazing watching God at work. I love you all.
thanks everyone :)
ReplyDeleteMiranda, it warms my heart to know that Paisly's story can touch someone :) I'm not on twitter, I never could get into the tweeting!
I came across your blog from butterfly kisses...I just wanted to say thank you for writing all of this, and you are helping me. So much. My husband and I are also christians, I think that a lot of what you write are words that I have already thought for myself...it just feels good to read them and realize that someone else can relate.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to hear that, and if you ever need to talk I am here :)
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