Moments

Today, I am really missing my little Paisly...I'm about to start getting ready for church and I can't help but think about how this morning would go if Paisly were here. I wonder what cute dress and bow would I be dressing her in, and if she would be babbling to me while I got her ready. I just really, really miss her today.

While we were at the beach, we did a lot of writing in the sand...we always do, I don't know why but I love to write in the sand! We wrote Paisly's name and we wrote Montgomery's name and our whole family's names...we wrote a lot.  We wrote Paisly's name and a little message to her in the sand, and just as soon as I finished writing it, the water came up higher than it had been and washed it away. It was one of those moments where God gives you peace. I just knew with my heart of hearts that Paisly got that message. It's one of those unexplainable moments that you could never explain if you had to, but you just know.

Thankfully Andrew was taking pictures like crazy, and you can see the water coming up to wash it away. I'm glad and thankful that my God gives me moments like those, it is those peaceful moments that get me through the day. 

Waves and Kicks

As I sit here listening to waves crash on the sand and see the endless ocean, I am reminded of God and how great He is. This is beautiful and only He could create something so serene. Also as I sit here, I feel little Butter Bean kick. This too reminds me of how blessed I am. My God is so good.

So I know you all want to know about the Dr's appointment Wednesday... Everything measured right on track. We talked to the Sonographer a little before hand about Paisly, so she measured the ventricles first, and we are so glad to say they are measuring great. She then went to see the sex of little Butter Bean...and that was difficult, Butter Bean did not want to show anything!!! We had to keep going back to it because Butter Bean would not open up to let us see...we thought we were going to have to wait to find out! Then finally there was a quick glimpse and we found that Butter Bean is a......GIRL!!!
Andrew gets to name her since I named Paisly Grace. He's named our little Butter Bean...
Montgomery Ashlyn.
I am so amazed at how God is already using little Montgomery to share her sister's story and the glory of God.  So many people ask about me being pregnant, then they ask if this is our first child, then the door is opened to tell Paisly's story and then to tell how God has blessed us once again with Montgomery. All I can say is God is good and I am so blessed.

Dear Cuppie Cake

My Little Cuppie Cake,

Sweet angel, I cannot tell you how much I miss you.  I still imagine every day what you would be like if you were here on this earth. I still go into the nursery and look at shoes and outfits and bows and imagine what I would be dressing you in for the day. I think about what types of food I would be feeding you, and if you would be a picky eater like your daddy. I wonder if by now you would be rolling and crawling all over the floors of this house and how many loads of laundry I would be doing because you are teething and drooling all over everything. I could sit and think all day about who you would be, what your personality would be like, who you looked like more. I try not to though. I try to think about how much joy you are experiencing because you are with our Lord and Saviour. I do think about what you are doing up there, who you are visiting with at the moment and who all you have seen since you've been there. If Mamaw Betty has told you about me as a baby, or if your daddy's Pawpaw tells you about how crazy your daddy can be.  As much as I am hurt that you are not here with me, I am comforted that you are with Jesus and safe in His arms.

We are going to find out next week whether you have a little brother or little sister to watch over. If it is a little brother...you are going to have your hands full because I'm sure he will be just like your daddy. Your daddy misses you so much. Any time he sees a pink rifle, or princess fishing rod, or cute little pink cowgirl boots he says "Paisly would have that".  We talk about you all the time, dreaming about what fun things you are doing, what great stories Jesus is telling you at the moment. I cannot wait sweet girl to see you again. I honestly can't explain how much you have changed my life. I am so thankful that God blessed me with you. Although you were not here with us for long, you changed us so much. I wouldn't trade you for anything. I feel your little brother or sister kicking, and it reminds me of when you were here, and then I am reminded of God's grace. He is so good to us, but I'm sure you know that because you see what he has done for us all. 

I want you to know how much you have changed not only my life, but so many lives around me. I am so thankful to God for blessing me with such a sweet, sweet daughter who has touched so many lives.

I love you, and I miss you beyond what words can describe. You are my cuppie cake, my sweet Paisly and I love you, and I cannot wait to see you again.

Love you always,
Mommy