A Poem From Paisly

I wrote this poem to give to my parents and Andrew's parents the night we found out we were pregnant :)

God shares with me all the prayers sent above
With so much care and so much love
He lets me know my family is full of love to share
And when he brought me home it caused much despair
He said to me for every time there is a season
And I brought you home for a very good reason
We’ve discussed it together and He assured me
He would bless this family with another baby
The time has come, and in the womb of my mother
Is growing so fast, my sister or brother
I wanted to share the good news with you
Because mommy and daddy are now parents of two

Love,
Paisly Grace

Back Again

They are back again, an I am so thrilled. I was just so excited to see them, and even more excited to see Andrew's face when he saw them. It's been a while since we saw them last so to see them now is just so exciting. They make me know that my God is an awesome God, that we are so blessed. We are so happy to see them again, but we are nervous just the same but we know that God is watching over it all and he will take care of everything.....so are ya'll wondering who 'they' are yet?




well they






are.....







TWO PINK LINES!!!





We're pregnant again :)

Please keep us in your prayers as I'm still pretty early in the pregnancy. So far everything is going great. We heard the heartbeat and it was 131. Butter Bean is in the right position. With Paisly she didn't quite make it to the dead center of my uterus as you may have read from earlier posts. We called Paisly our tater tot before we knew what the sex was. Well this on is butter bean :) We are thrilled that God has answered our prayers and we can only give Him the credit. From the moment I found out (which was in a lowe's hardware bathroom by the way) I told God I know this child as well as Paisly is His and His alone. We are trusting Him and His plan.



Now Paisly is a big sister and will be staying busy looking over her little brother or sister (At the moment I'm feeling little brother).



There is Paisly's 1st Teddy Bear that her mawmaw and pawpaw made her while I was preggo in front of her Christmas tree. I also finished her stocking...here it is

I'll Be Home

I'll be home for Christmas,
so please don't be so sad.
This is the greatest Christmas
that I've ever had.

I'll be home for Christmas,
so please don't grieve too long.
In heaven here with Jesus,
is where we all belong.

The world is full of struggles,
no matter where you roam,
but please don't be discouraged;
the world is not our home.

I'll be home for Christmas,
and one day, so will you.
The angels all are waiting,
and I'll be waiting too.

Alda Maria



I got an ornament at a specialty store yesturday with this poem on it for Paisly's tree. It's so true. Her Christmas in heaven, I know is better than any present we could have given her in this world.

All Knowing

Psalm 139:1, 14, 16
LORD, thou has searched me, and know me.
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

So true. God knows me, he knows my hurt, my heart. He knows that I constantly grieve over Paisly, that I miss her terribly and that I can't wait to see them both some day. He also knows the future, what is going to happen with Andrew and I , whether we are going to be able to adopt a precious child, or conceive one of our own. He knows it all. He knows the love I have for my husband and that I am forever thankful that he is mine and I am his. I love it, I love that I can trust in him and know that everything is going to work out as planned...not my plan but HIS. Such a wonderful feeling.

Sorry it's been a while...end of semester at school is crazy!!! Today alone I have 3 presentations, Monday is the last day of school then I have final exams/projects/papers due. I'll be so glad when this is all over. June 24th hurry up. Christmas is just around the corner and I love Christmas, love love love it. BUT this Christmas I just don't have the holiday spirit like usual. I love spending time with family and friends during the holidays but it's not as much fun knowing there is someone missing from the picture. I shouldn't say that, she's not missing, I know exactly where she is. She's just isn't here and I hate it. We are trying as much as we can to include her still. We've put her up a tree with cute green and pink ornaments. She has all kinds of ornaments, there are pink angel wings, little angels, ornaments from us, some from her grandparents and even one from Livi bug. She got her a green ball with a huge P on it, and it lights up...so adorable. She even has some ribbons with little cuppie cakes on them! Pics to come soon!

We were decorating the other night and I was ok up until the point where I hung the stockings. I have one for Andrew, me and a bone stocking for Mr Grunts and Lola, but there was one missing. I knew she is supposed to have a stocking and I lost it. This is where God has truly blessed me- Andrew sat me down and told me that he was going to go out and buy paisley print fabric, make her a stocking from it, paint cupcakes on the top of it, and have her picture put on the front of it. I am blessed with a wonderful husband. We are going to get an angel stocking holder to put it on and hang it right between ours. I'll try and post pics of it as soon as we are done making it.