All Knowing

Psalm 139:1, 14, 16
LORD, thou has searched me, and know me.
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully [and] wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

So true. God knows me, he knows my hurt, my heart. He knows that I constantly grieve over Paisly, that I miss her terribly and that I can't wait to see them both some day. He also knows the future, what is going to happen with Andrew and I , whether we are going to be able to adopt a precious child, or conceive one of our own. He knows it all. He knows the love I have for my husband and that I am forever thankful that he is mine and I am his. I love it, I love that I can trust in him and know that everything is going to work out as planned...not my plan but HIS. Such a wonderful feeling.

Sorry it's been a while...end of semester at school is crazy!!! Today alone I have 3 presentations, Monday is the last day of school then I have final exams/projects/papers due. I'll be so glad when this is all over. June 24th hurry up. Christmas is just around the corner and I love Christmas, love love love it. BUT this Christmas I just don't have the holiday spirit like usual. I love spending time with family and friends during the holidays but it's not as much fun knowing there is someone missing from the picture. I shouldn't say that, she's not missing, I know exactly where she is. She's just isn't here and I hate it. We are trying as much as we can to include her still. We've put her up a tree with cute green and pink ornaments. She has all kinds of ornaments, there are pink angel wings, little angels, ornaments from us, some from her grandparents and even one from Livi bug. She got her a green ball with a huge P on it, and it lights up...so adorable. She even has some ribbons with little cuppie cakes on them! Pics to come soon!

We were decorating the other night and I was ok up until the point where I hung the stockings. I have one for Andrew, me and a bone stocking for Mr Grunts and Lola, but there was one missing. I knew she is supposed to have a stocking and I lost it. This is where God has truly blessed me- Andrew sat me down and told me that he was going to go out and buy paisley print fabric, make her a stocking from it, paint cupcakes on the top of it, and have her picture put on the front of it. I am blessed with a wonderful husband. We are going to get an angel stocking holder to put it on and hang it right between ours. I'll try and post pics of it as soon as we are done making it.