My Little Cuppie Cake,
Sweet angel, I cannot tell you how much I miss you. I still imagine every day what you would be like if you were here on this earth. I still go into the nursery and look at shoes and outfits and bows and imagine what I would be dressing you in for the day. I think about what types of food I would be feeding you, and if you would be a picky eater like your daddy. I wonder if by now you would be rolling and crawling all over the floors of this house and how many loads of laundry I would be doing because you are teething and drooling all over everything. I could sit and think all day about who you would be, what your personality would be like, who you looked like more. I try not to though. I try to think about how much joy you are experiencing because you are with our Lord and Saviour. I do think about what you are doing up there, who you are visiting with at the moment and who all you have seen since you've been there. If Mamaw Betty has told you about me as a baby, or if your daddy's Pawpaw tells you about how crazy your daddy can be. As much as I am hurt that you are not here with me, I am comforted that you are with Jesus and safe in His arms.
We are going to find out next week whether you have a little brother or little sister to watch over. If it is a little brother...you are going to have your hands full because I'm sure he will be just like your daddy. Your daddy misses you so much. Any time he sees a pink rifle, or princess fishing rod, or cute little pink cowgirl boots he says "Paisly would have that". We talk about you all the time, dreaming about what fun things you are doing, what great stories Jesus is telling you at the moment. I cannot wait sweet girl to see you again. I honestly can't explain how much you have changed my life. I am so thankful that God blessed me with you. Although you were not here with us for long, you changed us so much. I wouldn't trade you for anything. I feel your little brother or sister kicking, and it reminds me of when you were here, and then I am reminded of God's grace. He is so good to us, but I'm sure you know that because you see what he has done for us all.
I want you to know how much you have changed not only my life, but so many lives around me. I am so thankful to God for blessing me with such a sweet, sweet daughter who has touched so many lives.
I love you, and I miss you beyond what words can describe. You are my cuppie cake, my sweet Paisly and I love you, and I cannot wait to see you again.
Love you always,
Mommy
So So sweet. I know she is watching you now and waiting for the new baby. You are so right, she has touched and helped to changed so many lives. Ryan, you and Andrew are an inspiration to me. Seeing how you all have coped with this and how much your faith has grown, I am so inspired. I love you both and I wish you all God has to offer. Take care. Sandy Burgess
ReplyDeleteThis is so sweet. She has touched so many lives, in so many ways. I know she is up there watching over you, Andrew and the precious little angel you are carrying now. She has probably already played with her little brother or sister. How sweet to think that he or she may have already been touched by their big sister. Brings tears to my eyes. God is so wonderful in so many ways. I know he can get you through anything. I have seen what he has brought you both through, and he will continue to carry you through. Just keep your faith, and hold that love you have for one another and be strong. Love you guys. Take care
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Hi. My name is Kayla. I found your blog through another family's blog (the Staats family and baby Maddie). You are so strong to go through what you went through and blog about it. Baby Paisley is beautiful, and I'm so sorry for your loss. I am so happy that you have found joy in your current pregnancy. I create custom invitations and birth announcements, and also make bows and blankets. In honor of beautiful baby Paisley I will donate an announcement, an invitation(first birthday), and a bow if Paisley will be having a little sister. And if Paisley has a little brother, I will donate an announcement, an invitation(first birthday), and a blanket. If you are interested, please email me at LittleTeapotDesigns@gmail.com.
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Kayla Mote
Little Teapot Designs
I read this poem and thought of you.
ReplyDeleteI thought of you and closed my eyes,
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother,
And I know I heard him say:
A mother has a baby,
This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a mother,
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied,
With confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies,
When they leave is not thier choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But theres no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile,
With other children who say:
We go to earth and learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much,
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are Ok.
Your babies are here in My home,
They'll be at heavens gate for you.
So now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day,
And you'll know that you're the best one!
-Author Unknown
God bless Paisly Grace and may she Rest In Peace