I got the idea to write a blog after reading the book "I will carry you" written by Angie Smith. I'm hoping this blog will accomplish a few things; informing those who are curious about our story and our sweet Paisly Grace, help me cope with what is happening, and share the gospel of Jesus Christ. I've read her blog and many others who have experienced what I have and if my blog can speak to just one person like they have spoke to me I will be satisfied. I'm sitting here...at 1am wondering if I'm crazy for starting this and if I'll actually keep up with it like I need to.
I hope I do, I want to. I'll be starting back to work next week, then in August I'll be starting school full time as well soooo...we'll see how it goes. Prayers would be much appreciated! This whole blogging thing can be a little confusing...I've been trying to figure out how to make this thing cute for almost an hour now!!! I'd like to put a cute paisley print back ground up... I'm glad I named her Paisly...the print has become so popular that I see it constantly and at first I didn't know if I'd like that, being constantly reminded that she is gone, but it's just the opposite. I love being reminded that she exists, she may not be here physically but I know that my daughter's sweet spirit will be with me until the day I meet her again in heaven.
I hope this blog speaks to you...or anyone. I want to tell everyone that God has a master plan, we may not know it and most likely this blog will remind me as well that we have to trust and have faith that he knows what he is doing even if it feels like no good can come of it...we have to trust...
Ryan, I know God has a master plan and HE is in control. I am so very proud to call you my daughter-im-law, no my DAUGHTER. The daughter I never had. You are so good for my Andrew and I see Christ in you and I am so thankful for that. What more could a mother want for her son! You are truly an amazing young lady and mother. I will miss Paisly Gracy dearly but knowing she is in the arms of Jesus, our Lord and Saviour is such a comforting feeling. Freddie and I are always here right by Andrew's and your side. I love you my sweet precious daughter
ReplyDeleteRyan your blog as touched my heart. Your pregnancy and mine were alot alike in so many ways. I went from having to much fluid to having to less fluid in the matter of days and no one could figure out where it went or why. Then I went in to having NST every 2 weeks and ultasounds every week. I failed my NST every week and ended up in the hosptial. I had already had all I was suppost to have the week my son was born. It was on a thursday Logan wasnt moving and I was in pain. The dr told me I was crazy and to go home and lay down and they would see me next week. Friday morning can I was still in pain and at this point I had already miscarried 4 times. I called the dr. I went to the office and they hooked me up to the NST and I fail it again. They sent me to the hospital and I think the dr beat me there. He told me that this baby had to be delieved in 20 min or he wouldnt make it. They put me completely under the last thing I remember him saying to the nurse before I went out was be perpared for the worst..this one is not looking good. I came to about 3 hrs later not sure what had happened. Not knowing the dr had already told my husband it wasnt looking good for me. After they sent me to me room they told me logan was barly alive by had oxygen and wasnt responding to anything else. Then they told me it would be ok because benners was on the way. I sent the next 21 days by his bedside not know if he was going to pull through. God anwsered my prayer and he is her with me. However he does have cerebal palsy and somedays are worse then others. Your story has touched me in so many ways. On my worst days I take time out to get online and look at pictures of little paisly and that helps me get through the day. This morning I got up read your blog not know yet what kind of day Logan is going to have yet. I came honestly say right now it doesnt matter I am ready for anything. I will be blessed for my day ahead. Thank you for sharing your story you will never know how much it truly means to me. You and your family will always have a special place in my heart and we will still pray for god strength to bless you everyday.
ReplyDeleteI love you too Lori! and I'm glad to be married to Andrew. You did such a great job raising such a wonderful man!!! I'm proud to be a part of yall's family!!!!!
ReplyDeleteAlyssa,
I had to idea about Logan, I knew you mentioned that he had to go to therapy but I had no idea the extent of everything. I'll be praying for his health as long as patience for you, I know it can be trying at times but just by talking to you on here I can tell you have a sweet spirit and can handle it! You are a great mommy!