Dear Paisly,
First I want to tell you what an impact you have already made on so many people and this brings me so much joy, so much that people wouldn't understand. I know in my heart of hearts that you are with our Lord and Savior and that gives me peace. I know you are safer and happier than you could ever be in this old world. Your daddy said that he is glad to know he doesn't have to worry about you, he knows your pawpaw is up there playing with you and telling you all kinds of jokes. He says just play and have fun. I want you to know that your daddy is wonderful to me, and I know that he would have been such a great daddy to you...he already is a great daddy to you. When you were in my belly we read books to you at night. Your daddy was so hilarious, instead of reading the books word for word he would make up his own parts of the story to fit in. You kicked and kicked listening to his crazy stories. He was so protective of you. He wouldn't let me clean anything...I wasn't even allowed to dust!!! He wanted so many things for you...he even had a cute pink rifle picked out that he was going to take you hunting with :)
I want you to know you were so loved, I'm sure Jesus has told you how much your family here cares for you, they were all so hurt to know that you wouldn't be staying with us fulfilling all the dreams we had for you. Both your Nana and Mamaw had something for you almost every time I saw them, Paci's and bears and clothes galore!!! Your aunts and uncles were thrilled about you coming. Your Pa and Papaw had plans to tell you Navy stories and try to coax you into being a Carolina fan...that wasn't going to happen if I had anything to do with it :)
We had everything ready for your arrival. I have tons and tons of bows and shoes I planned to match with the cutest of outfits! Although we had all of your worldly things ready, we could have never ever been as prepared for you as our Lord was. He knew you were coming sweet baby. He knew the exact time that you would enter into his kingdom and he was ready for you. As much as he is caring for you, he is doing the same for me. He has placed so many people here that are showering your mommy and daddy with prayers. We need them because we are devastated that you are not here with us. I often sing to you, hoping that Jesus lets you hear me. I sing "the cupie cake song", I sang it to you when you were in my belly and I had planned to sing it to you every night when I put you to sleep. I looked forward to putting bandaids on your little knees followed by big kisses; but I know you will never need any type of bandaid in heaven and I am so glad!
I love you my sweet angel and I miss you terribly. I cannot wait to see you again someday soon.
2Samuel 12:23 says: But now he is dead, wherefore should I fast? can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he shall not return to me.
I know that I will never see you again on this side but I have so much comfort in knowing that I will see you on the other side of Glory.
I love you my little cuppie cake
Love, Mommy
Oh Ryan, that is so sweet! I know you miss her terribly, but God is using her and you to touch lives in ways you may never know until you get to heaven. What a Wonderful Day that will be!
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Aunt Debra
omg im crying this is so sweet and loving ryan i really dont think you understand how strong of a person you are going through all of this....i have so many feelings and emotions about all of this it hurts me to imagine how much hurt and pain you went through i love you girl and you are sooo strong so is you loving husband...love Erica
ReplyDeleteRyan, I agree with Erica. You are much stronger than you think or give yourself credit. I love you and and this blog is awesome. I have already shared it with mawmaw and she wanted a copy of every page. Tim has read it, Katie has read it and many more. You are touching many lives and it has helped me too to read your words. God is working so keep up the good work my sweet daughter. Paisly has great parents whom love her very much. Even though she was only here on earth a very short while she is impacting lives everywhere.
ReplyDeleteI love this letter Ryan. It truly reflects your strength in God and of yourself. You're still in my prayers. <3
ReplyDeleteThis is soo pretty and sweet. I cried the whole time reading it. She has wonderful parents and she will meet yall again one day.
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Lisa bunting
thanks everyone, I'm so glad yall like it. I want my daugher's life to have meaning, I want her tiny voice to be heard, and yall's comments make me know that it is!!! <3
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful letter. You and Andrew are such great parents. I know that your little Paisly isn't with you in body but she knows you. She knew you when you were pregnant with her and she watches over you now. I know she is so very proud of what an amazingly strong woman her mommy is. Thank you so much for sharing your blog with us, it touches my heart.
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This is the sweetest thing ever!!!!! Ryan, I feel confident that Paisly knows you wrote her this letter. I can see Jesus telling her "I have some mail for you" and her sitting on his lap as he reads it to her. Her big cute smile as he reads it and afterward her telling Jesus just how much you two mean to her:) I encourage you to keep writing her letters like this. Its simply beautiful.
ReplyDeleteO Lord, our Heavenly Father, who hast bestowed upon us the blessings of friends and families, look down in love upon our kindred. Protect and keep them from all harm; prosper and bless them in all things good; suffer them never to be lonely, unhappy, nor troubled; let no shadow come between them and us to divide our hearts; and in Thine own good time bring us home to them again. Through the same Thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen mph
ReplyDeleteRyan and Andrew,
ReplyDeleteYou guys are great!! I cannot imagine what you are going through, but I must say we are all better people for knowing you both and Paisly. We will all be in Heaven with her soon. Just know, she is looking down on you and she knows just how much you love her.
If you need me, I'm here!!
Love you both!!
Gwynn