Happy Birthday

Wow...I haven't written in a while. So sorry about that! I have been in summer school to completely finish my degree and Thursday was my last day...woot woot! Now I am completely finished with school....until I start my next degree which will be next year.

So much has been going on that I need to write about I'm just praying that with my preggo brain I can remember it all!

First things first...Tuesday, the 21st was my Cuppie Cake's 1st Birthday. I honestly wanted to just stay at home curled up in a ball all to myself. I knew though that wasn't what I needed and would just make me feel horrible. I forced myself to make a Dr's appointment. I'm going once a week now for non stress tests and I figured hearing Montgomery's heartbeat on that monitor for 30 minutes would make me feel better. I was right, it did and I got some great news which I will share a little further down the page :)  After my doctor's appointment I met up with a friend whom I met online. I'm so glad I didn't stay at home and got out. My friend, Jill had a precious little boy Ryland who passed away. It was so nice to meet with her and Austin and get to know them. Ryland and I share the same birthday- June 19th, and he passed away the same day Paisly Grace was born. Jill and I have kept in touch and talked quite a bit when everything first happened. She has also been blessed with another child so keep her in your prayers that her little boy comes into this world beautiful and healthy! She came down to Greensboro for a Dr's appointment as well then we met for lunch at Mimi's Cafe. It was delish! It was a good time and I'm so glad I finally got to meet her in person!!!

The night before Paisly's birthday I was making her flowers to take to her. They are so cute! I got cupcake ribbon and birthday ribbon and looped it in and out of the bouquet I made. I'm going to post some pictures, hopefully tomorrow.  That night I broke down. I was so excited about making her flowers then I couldn't help but think that it is so crazy I'm getting excited about flowers. I should be planning her birthday party which I had already planned to do in a cupcake theme and getting excited about that. After Paisly passed I signed up for these daily emails, they are called griefshare and they send you an email every day for one year. If you've ever had a loved one pass I strongly recommend this. For that day the email was about God being good. It started with this "Can you truly say that God is good?"  Then went on to say that one of the worst things you can do as a Christian is wear a mask on your face saying how great God is when actually your heart is breaking inside. I didn't know exactly what to think about this to begin with. I do believe that God is good but my heart is also still breaking inside.                                                            

I think what it means is that you can't just go around professing how wonderful God is if you don't honestly believe it. I do believe it. This past year has brought so many changes in my life and they all came about because of that precious sweet little girl that our Lord and Savior blessed us with. I am not at all the same person I was before I had Paisly and neither is Andrew. We have grown in God and grown with each other and all I can say about it is...God is good. I look around at all he has blessed us with and there is no other way to put it except for...God is GOOD!

Now for some other news....news I don't want to share. Andrew had been in contact with Bikers for Babies and March of Dimes for weeks. He talked to them all the time and did quite a bit of planning. One day I got home and he just looked crushed. I asked what was wrong and he informed me that March of Dimes had called that day and told him that they were not going to do the ride. They said if we wanted to have it, we could put their name on it but they would not be supporting us with it. Andrew is working very hard on trying to figure out something else to do for Paisly and all the other families like ours. He already has quite a few ideas we are just trying to sort them out to see which will work best.

Now for some good news :)... When I went to the Dr this past Tuesday they informed me that they were going to take Montgomery as early as they could. They are doing so because they we still do not know exactly what happened to Paisly Grace and because they know my anxiety level is high. So...they are going to do an amniocentesis (which I am VERY nervous about) at 36 weeks to see if her little lungs are developed and if so they are going to induce the next day. This means that in two weeks we may be having our little girl!!! This is very exciting and very nerve racking at the same time so prayers are much needed and appreciated!