A bittersweet Day

I dreaded this day all week.
I thought I would be antisocial and not wanting to have anything to do with anybody.
I thought I would be depressed and sad and mad and just a basket case.
Much to my surprise I wasn't. Well...I was sad today but I wasn't as bad as I thought I would be. That's why I love my God. I prayed he would help me through today and he did, way beyond my expectations. I figured I would be crying on and off all day but I didn't. I kept it together for the most part. Andrew got me three cards; one from him, one from Paisly and one from Montgomery. I cried when I read Paisly's card and then this afternoon we went to see Paisly and I lost it a little then, but for the most part I had peace all day and for that I am so thankful.

On another note, this past Thursday night I had a great night....I GRADUATED!!! I am SO glad this day has finally come. I feel very accomplished at the moment but still have a little to go. I was able to walk at my graduation but still have to complete two summer classes. It was either walk now or in august which is when I am due and I knew it would be hard enough to sit through a graduation as huge as I am now. Then my plans are to take a year off from school then go back to finish my masters to be a Speech Pathologist. I can't wait till I'm finished and can start working as a Speech Therapist. I shadowed a friend and I LOVE it...can't wait!!!

Back to Mother's Day...I think what has helped me today as well, is that God has blessed me with another precious little girl and she's been sure to let me know she's here with me today. Kicks and punches and rolls all day have made me so happy.  Today was bittersweet because I know Paisly isn't here to shower me with mommy day kisses but I know where she is and that gives me peace. I also know that I have another little girl on the way that will one day be showering me with mommy day kisses and hugs. All I can say is I am blessed.