A Great Weekend

This weekend has been wonderful :)

Last night we went to hear Angie Smith speak. One word... Amazed. She has such genuine faith. You can just tell that she is a honest, genuine Christian woman. I admire her faith so much with the loss of her daughter. "Scouting for Hope" was the name of the service last night and it was a good one. The Lord was there with all of us mother's who share a horrible bond. As much as I loved being able to go to something like that where everyone there knew exactly how I felt, it was terrible just the same. I still can't believe how much miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss happens. It's so unheard of, and I can understand why. I can't just go blurting out that I have a daughter in heaven without getting strange looks. Although the sadness may be written on my face, the whole story isn't. A friend of the lady who put together the even shared her story before Angie got up to speak. While she was sharing it with us, there was not one dry eye in the house. This woman lost...I can't even remember how many babies. I want to say 6. She had an auto immune deficiency and every time she got pregnant her body just rejected the pregnancy. She got pretty far along with some of those babies. She finally had 2 children, but they were a huge struggle to have, both were supposed to have mental and physical delays according to the doctors. The last baby, the doctors encouraged her heavily to abort the baby, much like my Doctors did. She refused, and had her 2nd little girl. Both who were there last night, and both were healthy. I love the ending of her story. We trust doctors so much, sometimes too much. We need to put that trust in God.

When Angie spoke she told her story. I've read her book, her blog and interviews she has done, but hearing it straight from her mouth was just more moving. She, once again, made me feel better about how I feel. She quoted from a book she had read about mourning and dancing. She said that she isn't quite to the dancing part yet. It made me feel better. As much as I am trusting God and know He has a plan for us, I am not dancing yet. It's been 2 1/2 years since her Audrey passed and she still isn't dancing, she said she's bought her tap shoes but that's it. It's been 4 months since Paisly passed, and I haven't even bought my dancing shoes. All in all it was a good service. We got to hear her speak, we got to hear Todd from Selah sing :) :) :) and we had a candle lighting/dedication for the babies in heaven. Afterward I got to meet Angie and we talked for about 10 minutes! I showed her Paisly's album and shared her story. I even got a picture with her :) and will post it along with the bazillion others I've been promising to put up as soon as I can find that cord!

Today we got a lot done around the house like I wanted. I even planted some mums! They are so pretty! It was so pretty outside today! I love weather like this! Fall is my favorite! I'm sure the rest of the weekend will be just as nice :)


Ryan